Monday, December 31, 2012


see Official Rubik's Cube Website
"i wanted You to know
that i am ready to go, heartbeat
my heartbeat
i wanted You to know
whenever You aren't around, can't speak
i can't speak" (Childish Gambino - Heartbeat, 2011)

or in other words, à la Saint Peter, "Lord, You know everything, You know my heartbeat, You know that i love You."

do you remember the old commercial about "this is your brain" using a frying pan and eggs?!  it was about the war on drugs.  just say no.

well meet Mr. Rubik's Cube.  this is my life - sometimes a mess.  "this is your brain", in the year that was 2012.  a few months ago i was in awe of Ted Hurley, (well i usually am, he is one cool cat!) when we met to discuss a project.  i walked into his office and noticed the Rubik's cube!  it was a mess.  i challenged him.  and even before i could make another smart comment, he had it solved!  yep, he is one of those people who can solve it!  awkward, ... for me. :)

at the end of every year we tend to evaluate things, reflect, meditate on what was, what should be, how i could improve things.  and so, 2013 is the year of Fr. Blake.  2013 is the year of jonathan.  2013 is the year of Jo-Nathan.  2013 is the year of Jo-Nation!  we all want our lives perfect, like a Rubik's cube.  instead of chaos (a messed up Rubik's cube), we want perfection (a solved Rubik's cube).  but life is not like that.  in fact, we are all called to holiness (a mixture of both i think, highs + lows, heartbeat).

i have great memories of the Rubik's cube.  i fixed it once.  though i cheated (you know, change the stickers).  funny how you can't cheat your heart though.  you have to figure things out as you go.  after 37 years, maybe i can work one side only, or maybe possibly one line, or four corners!  during the Year of Faith, we are given time to fix things, to improve things, to heal things with the grace of God!  to solve the problem!  of course, we are not problems like the Rubik's cube, but we are mysteries.  a beautiful mystery.

all the colours remind me of what i need to work on this year - faith, hope and love!  these theological virtues  (see Catechism) help guide us on the spiritual journey.  if you haven't mastered them yet, then work on one of them at a time.  if all three seem impossible, one colour at a time is very possible!  i also will work on the evangelical counsels (see Catechism) - poverty, obedience, chastity!  again, if all three look impossible, then work on one colour at a time, one side at a time.

this year buy a Rubik's cube, and dive deeper into the Mystery of Faith, the joy of God in Our Lord Jesus Christ.

bonne + heureuse Sainte Année.  happy Holy New Year!  peace.

Sunday, December 30, 2012

personal jesus

reach out and touch faith
your own personal Jesus
someone to hear your prayers
someone who cares
your own personal Jesus
someone to hear your prayers
someone who's there (Depeche Mode - Personal Jesus, 1989)
what does the Holy Family have to say to us today?  the question raised by Fr. Thomas Rosica with his homily indicates that families today are having more and more difficulties in passing on the faith to the next generation.  i agree.  i see it everyday via the families i minister to in our Sacraments Preparation program for First Confession, First Communion.  we have lost the words, and language to share and discuss the faith with our children.  in fact, the same generation are lost when it comes to properly celebrating funerals as well.  we no longer know what to do, how to do it, and sometimes even lost as to who could help.  this Year of Faith, a year of falling in love with God in Our Lord Jesus Christ once again, let us find the words and language in order to evangelize, in order to be healed and made whole again, then allowing us to share the Good News to those knocking on heaven's door (searching) - to be a type of personal Jesus for others.
"what's wrong with the world today? - i am." (G.K. Chesterton)
preparing for all things Holy Family + Holy Mary Mother of God, i was happily surprised by CNN's preaching the Good News of Jesus Christ, through Piers Morgan's (a Roman Catholic) interview of Pastor Rick Warren (an Evangelical).  i haven't heard of Rick until i heard him come to the defense of Angus T. Jones, who had strong words for the anything-but-Catholic show Two + a Half Men a few weeks back.  he had said something like, "whatever you do, do not watch that show!"  anywho, i thought Rick did a good job at tackling some of the issues Piers brought up.
"it is not about you.  it is about God in Our Lord Jesus Christ." - Pastor Rick Warren
the show, Pastor Rick Warren on CNN Religion in America, was not much of a dialogue, however.  but it does help us find the words and language to talk about our faith.  Piers brought up the Church, small communities, the Pope, authority of the Bible, his personal issue with the idea that we are all sinners, weight loss, condoms, sex, marriage, and same-sex attractions, not necessary in that order.  i thought Rick did a good job in talking about the joy that is our faith!

Seinfeld talking to Elaine,
... waiting for a talk show i think
at one point they made me think of a Seinfeld episode, the famous The Doll episode (the doll, Maestro, Oro-Dent electric toothbrush, etc.).  Rick + Piers were discussing faith, and materialism and how both don't always mix nicely.  we all want the good life.  but the reality is that it is never enough.  we want the better life.  that's where God in Jesus Christ comes in.  however, proposing Him to others is difficult.  it was like Seinfeld proposing his Oro-Dent electric toothbrush to Elaine, but she not being interested.  but it is a much better toothbrush, Seinfeld would insist.  again, Elaine is not interested.  Seinfeld is confused as why Elaine wouldn't want the better experience.  Rick proposes the joy of faith, the joy of Jesus Christ to Piers, but he ... was not ready.  Piers had too many questions to go through before the end of the show.  Rick proposes God in Our Lord Jesus Christ to all, not because you are going to die, but because you are going to live!  we who evangelize, who share the joy of God in Our Lord Jesus Christ, continue to be confused as to why others are not quick to experience true freedom.

they talked more on sex, marriage, family.  how divorce was not an option for Rick and his wife.  that love is not just an emotion, but a choice!  this lead into more discussion on same-sex attraction.  Rick talked about love of God, love of neighbour, and how we are called to love everyone.  but there was not enough time to really talk or debate this issue in more detail (see later post).  though Rick tried to address this issue, Piers had other topics in mind.

finally, the show ended with a final thought, which mirrored what abbé Francois Kibwenge (my pastor) preached on for Christmas.  that though we celebrate the baby Jesus, He in fact grows up!  we are all called to grow, and mature in Faith.  during this Year of Faith, let us find the words and language to know and experience the love of God in our lives.  through this experience, let us be prepared to boldly go where no man has gone before - in the hearts of those who have never heard of God in Our Lord Jesus Christ.
"Space the human heart: the final frontier. These are the voyages of the starship Enterprise Church. Its Her five-year mission: to explore strange new worlds, to seek out new life and new civilizations, to boldly go where no man has gone before." (see

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

it's oh so quiet

Claude Théberge's Nuit de décembre
it's oh so quiet
it's oh so still
you're all alone
and so peaceful until ...
you fall in love (Björk - It's Oh So Quiet, 1995)
waking up this morning was difficult, after four Christmas Eve masses - 16h, 18h, 20h, 22h.  so before the day begins - it's oh so quiet - i pour myself a cup of coffee (à la ABp Fulton Sheen).  beautiful!  then, of course, it is Christmas, so i look forward in spreading the Good News once again!  this year, the Year of Faith, fall in love again (or, for the first time) with God in Our Lord Jesus Christ.  He will change everything.  Merry Noël, Joyeux Christmas!!!

and, the video:

"Zing boom
The sky up above
Zing boom
Is caving in
Wow bam
you've never been so nuts about a guy
You wanna laugh you wanna cry
You cross your heart and hope to die 
Til it's over and then
Its nice and quiet
But soon again
Starts a nother big riot!! 
You blow a fuse
Zing boom
the devil cut s loose
Zing boom
So what's the use
Wow bam
Of falling in love 
Its oh so quiet
Its oh so still
You're all alone
And so peaceful until ... 
You ring the bell
Bim ban
You shout and you yell
Hi ho ho
You broke the spell
Gee, this is swell you almost have a fit
This guy is "gorge" and I got hit
There's no mistake this is it
Til it's over and then ... 
Its nice and quiet
But soon again
Starts another big riot!! 
You blow a fuse
zing boom
The devil cuts loose
Zing boom
What's the use
Wow bam
Of falling in love
The sky caves in
The devil cuts loose
You blow blow blow blow blow your fuse
When You've fallen in love
Ssssshhhhhhhh ... "
genuis!  peace.

Monday, December 24, 2012

we're going to be friends

Mother + Child.
"tonight i'll dream while i'm in bed
when silly thoughts go through my head
about the bugs and alphbet
and when i wake tommorow i'll bet
that You and i will walk together again
cause i can tell that we're going to be friends."  (White Stripes - We're Going to be Friends, 2002)
thank you to one and all for your gift of friendship, through the ups and downs of following God in Our Lord Jesus Christ.  Lord knows i cannot do it by myself.  i know you have my back.  i have yours as well.  i am praying for you all, tonight at our Midnight Mass, .... which is the 10pm mass.  :)

i'm in awe of the Christmas joy flowing through the digital continent today, i found this from Fr. Michael Newman (a classmate) via facebook:
tonight and tomorrow we celebrate Christmas – the feast on which God in Jesus becomes one of us to set us free from all that chains and enslaves us and through his life and example to show us how to live as sons of God in the world. In his Christmas homily in 1620 Francis spoke of Jesus as “Love coming into the world to set us free.” This Love frees us from our past and leads us into the future of 2013. 
Or, as stated in the song “Sigh No More” by Mumford and Sons, this divine Love “will not betray you, dismay or enslave you; it will set you free. Be more like the man you were meant to be.”
and from me, Merry Christmas.  Joyeux Noël!  party hard.  pray harder.  May God bless you, and Mary protect you.  peace.

update:  the video:

Monday, December 17, 2012

all my friends

"and so it starts
you switch the engine on
we set controls for the heart of the sun
one of the ways we show our age" (LCD Soundsystem - All My Friends, 2007)

is this how holiness is suppose to be?  is this how we are meant to live our lives, ... by a metronome!?!  impossible!

today, as the song says, if you're worried about the weather then you picked the wrong place to stay - it was a snow day.  as one of the comments on this video mentions, this has to be one of the best songs, ever!  dude, seriously!  i spent all day inside praying, "ora pro snowbis", being serenaded by SiriusXM XMU, and heard this song once again.  can you be in a love with music?  with a song?  i remember good/bad memories learning to play the piano as a young junior higher playing with this metronome-thing-a-ma-gig!  who needs that when you got a keyboardist like this one in the song!  i had problems playing Mary Had a Little Lamb on tempo!  wow, amazing!!!

anywho, all that to say, life and holiness has its own tempo.  i've stopped making excuses about my blogging, or lack their of.  life has a got a hold of me, and sometimes i fall behind.  but, with all my friends, i continue to fight the good fight.  i thought about this while celebrating mass this morning for (me +) my peeps.  indeed, it was the genealogy of Our Lord Jesus Christ (Mt 1:1-17).  this is no commentary on it.  but life continues, since we are all part of His family, rather those who do the will of the Father, "there is my mother, my brother, my sister." (Mt 12:46-50)

who helps me on this journey of holiness?  on this journey of Faith?  priests or laity?  indeed, that's the wrong question!  life is not about either/or, but both/and!  i need the example of both good priests and good faithful people loving life, loving God!  as a friend reminded me on facebook today:  do what they say, but not necessarily what they do.

ora pro snowbis, indeed!  with the overdue snow (i love winter), many things got cancelled today - schools, i was supposed to go practice for our Creche Vivante avec l'ESCRH (be there or be square this coming Wednesday night at the local Catholic High School in Hawkesbury).  i was supposed to have a Christmas party with Les Brebis des Jésus, a children's catechesis group in our parish.  i celebrated the Holy Sacrifce of the Mass with the peeps in the morning, and also for the funeral of Rollande Renauld, 92 years young this afternoon.

i also had extra time to do research.  i found many of our friends, our brothers and sisters in faith loving life, and loving God!  i was joyful when i found yet another blog by a priest(s), a classmate(s) to boot.  not only one, but two - Fr. Jeff + Fr. Brad.  good memories of them while in the seminary.  great competition while playing floor hockey!  i've add their links to these are the priests i know, i know, these are the priests i know section!

then someone sent me the conversion story of my sister, Holly.  check it out, yo!  added to that was the new evangelization website by my brothers the Companions of the Cross.  then, i've started getting pumped (spiritually) through the help of my sister Erin, youth director for the Archdiocese of Winnepeg - you go girl!  then, i sit back and chill with my brother Tim (Moncton High School classmate)'s 90 Days of Music Challenge!  extra coolio.  of course, last week i started following His Grace and the Holy Father through Twitter.  respect, yo!  and with the constant encouragement i get from all of you through this digital continent, though today was difficult at times, i was on a spiritual high through most of it!  no metronome needed here!  sometimes you have to reset things.  sometimes you have to wind them up again.  sometimes you don't have to worry at all.  thanks for looking out for me.  i got ur back as well.  all of this, of course, in this Year of Faith (year of joy!), is making its way in the next homily(ies)! union de prière.

thanks to all for the help on this journey!


ps.  hat tip to Joe C., for poking me into writing another blog post too.  grazie!

ps. x 2:  the video, of course: