Wednesday, August 03, 2011

wait til you see my smile

"when the wind is blowing in your face
sometimes in life you don't see straight
pray to Him, He will show ...
wait til you see my smile
wait til they see your smile" (Alicia Keys - Wait til You See My Smile, 2009)
today is the feast of St. John Vianney. i remember when i was in Ars with three of my brother seminarians - now priests in T.Dot, PEIsland, and Rome. we stopped by the famous statue of where St. John Vianney got lost + asked for directions! "you showed me the way to Ars, and i'll show you the way to Heaven", he said to the boy shepherding sheep. today, lost in a different way, i echo his words, "you showed me the way to Hawkesbury, and i'll show you the way to Heaven."

i felt truly lost twice in my life. first, when i moved to Pittsburgh, PA for work. second, this week on Monday. in the first, i had a great time driving the UHaul with Dad across provinces and states from NB. it was difficult saying good bye to mom at the border in Woodstock/NB:Houlton/Ma. when my dad left me there, by myself for the first time at 21, it was a rough month. saying good bye to my family at AOLP last Sunday was difficult, indeed, one of the hardest things i had to do. then, Monday morning i drove myself to my new parish, and just like that, a new beginning on this journey of holiness.
"There is a difference between 'aloneness' and loneliness. God didn’t intend man to be alone. Loneliness acts like a divine sticky note that says, 'Don’t forget for whom you were made.'” (All About Him by Steve Dewitt)
last Sunday, saying good bye's to everyone was one of the hardest days of my life. i have been part of you for two years, and you were my family. it seems kind of silly to send a two-year old on their way ... indeed, as a two-year old baby priest, i have still much to learn. after finishing mass, standing in front of the altar, preparing for the recessional hymn, i was focusing everything i had on the crucifix! in the middle of such a difficult experience, my prayer was, "God, why do You love me so much?"

as difficult as the road is sometimes, the journey with God in JC is beautiful! i echo St. John Vianney once again, pointing to the Eucharist, he said often, "He is there! there is nothing greater than the Eucharist!" thank you to all those who prayed for me at AOLP. of course, this is not good bye, but see you later alligator, after a while crocodile, and my new favourite saying, tootalou kangaroo!

it's official - the diocese update the pastors for St-Pierr-Apôtre in Hawkesbury! merci pour tous ceux qui m'ont accueilli mardi matin! j'ai hâte a vous connaitre/aimer, et de me laisser connaitre/aimer par vous, sur ce chemin vers Dieu en Jésus! comme le Curé d'Ars, je dis, "vous m'avez montrez le chemin d'Hawkesbury, je vous montrerai le chemin du Ciel."

now, i'm off - yet again, to be faithful to the coffee ministry at Tim Horton's! peace.

1 comment:

  1. so how was it saying mass
    at st-pierr-Apotre for the first time?
    were difentliy going to miss you on Sunday
    Kayla Kirshner