Saturday, November 07, 2009

shout



"(...) you shouldn't have to shout for joy
shout, shout, let it all out, these are the things i can do without
come on, i'm talking to you, come on" (Tears for Fears - Shout, 1985)
trying to understand God, the Holy Trinity, is not easy. i remember what i learned day one at the seminary - God is not a problem to be solved, but a mystery to be entered into! booyah! i never forgot that, it hit me like that can of soup that fell on my toe when i was a young pup.

sometimes i forget that though. i do try to solve Him. as i analyze my chess moves, i analyze His moves, trying to get the better position. i'm running to avoid check, not realizing that we are on the same team. as the ol' song goes, how do you solve a problem like maria, or me in this case? i realized this past week, we as human beings are not problems to be solved, and neither am i. i have been seeking the answer to questions, as buddy goes to the well for answers. for example, the question of balance in life - continues to be my daily puzzle. ministry, exercise, prayer, add a little sleep, and presto - perfect priest. hmmm, if only it were that easy. however, i seem to be focusing on all this as a problem to be solved rather than as a mystery to be entered into. i'm not in control, God is. i'm just trying to follow His lead.

last week, however, i needed a break. i ended up going to Champboisé to rest awhile in the Lord. silence is the best music after all. so i spent my day off reconfiguring things, analyzing this, contemplating that, ... basically praying, sleeping and eating - not necessarily in that order. they say that the first year of the priesthood is the worst. guess what? the honeymoon is over! i'm now in my sixth month as a priest, and - as i heard it said this morning by one of the parishionners, transitions are difficult, even the positive ones. this is going to be a bumpy ride, i'd better hold on! ah, but to what? to prayer, of course. my mini-retreat has taught me the importance of prayer, and the emphasis i must put on it. this is indeed a ride of a lifetime, a journey of holiness can be nothing other. and, prayer smooths out that ride and make it peaceful.

so, now that i've shouted it all out, figured out those things i can do without, i can move forward and upward. it'll be a busy next couple of weeks. this week i'm off to North Bay for work with the vocations committee (francophone side of things). i'm going with Daniel B., our episcopal vicar for the francophone lung of the diocese. i'm looking forward to it, and more on that later. the following week i'm back to Toronto for convocation. after having missed it while finishing up and UNB, i'm excited to see how it all goes down. then, at the end of this month, marks something special! i'm not going to say what it is, but let's just say that my mom is flying in for the weekend to celebrate it with me! :) good times.

have a great week. peace out.

1 comment:

  1. Une vraie perle de sagesse. Comme il est bon de lâcher prise et de s’en remettre au mystère. Contrairement à ce que l’on tend à croire de nos jours, nos facultés de rationalisation n’opèrent pas toujours à notre avantage. Merci de l’inspiration!

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